He Loved Me First

He liked to brag that he loved me first. And he did.  His great love evoked my own love for him. No woman could resist his great proclamations of love.

His love was permanent, he said–forever and ever amen. He couldn’t bear to “run out” on me, so he wanted me to die first–in his arms–so as to spare me the pain of separation. But he would camp out at my grave until he died. He would be praying for death, and it would come soon because no man can live once his heart is ripped out of him. He suggested “The man who loved [Moonbeam]” as his epitaph. He hoped for the mansion next to mine in heaven if they wouldn’t let us share.

I had the power of life or death over him. I had restarted his heart and I could stop it cold–just by failing to love him. I was his engine, and without me he could not move and was fit only for the junk yard. The most profound relationship or experience he had ever had was with me.

If he didn’t love me, no man ever loved a woman. He called God as his witness and swore that he loved me. He felt that any man who knew me and even looked at another woman was not worthy of me. He  loved me like no man ever had and no man ever would again.

I was his “pearl of great price.”  He promised to make me the envy of all women. He intended to keep expressing his love for me as long as he lived. His great brilliance, he said, was shown in the fact that he loved me. He wanted to tattoo my name on his private parts!

Now how could I resist such love? I couldn’t. What woman could? So I loved him in return. I loved him truly, deeply, madly–just as he said he loved me.

But forever and ever amen is not as long as one might think. In fact, less than two years after the wedding, he was not only looking at other women but seeking their company.

He loved me first. But I loved him better. And I loved him last. He was wrong about loving me forever and ever amen. He was wrong about a lot of things. But one thing I hope he was right about. I hope no man ever loves me again like he loved me.

Moonbeam
11.26.09

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Prophets Passing out of the Land

Daniel 9:24 NKJV  “Seventy weeks are determined For your people and for your holy city, To finish the transgression, To make an end of sins, To make reconciliation for iniquity, To bring in everlasting righteousness, To seal up vision and prophecy, And to anoint the Most Holy.

We understand that this all happened by AD 70 with the destruction of Jerusalem. And we notice that vision and prophecy would be sealed up at this time.

Zechariah 13:1  In that day there shall be a fountain opened to the house of David and to the inhabitants of Jerusalem for sin and for uncleanness.
2  And it shall come to pass in that day, saith the LORD of hosts, that I will cut off the names of the idols out of the land, and they shall no more be remembered: and also I will cause the prophets and the unclean spirit to pass out of the land.

Again, a prophecy that there would be no more prophecy.  When would this be? When the fountain was “opened to the house of David and the inhabitants of Jerusalem for sin and for uncleanness.” After that, God would not inspire men again.

Now, a question. If all this was to happen at this time, how could the book of Revelation be written in AD 95? Nobody was inspired at that time. It seems to me that if it WAS written after AD 70, then it is fake because prophets would have already passed out of the land.

Luke 21:22  For these be the days of vengeance, that all things which are written may be fulfilled.

We understand that this prophecy of Jesus concerned the destruction of Jerusalem in AD 70. Jesus said all things that were written would be fulfilled when this destruction came.

Luke 21:24  And they shall fall by the edge of the sword, and shall be led away captive into all nations: and Jerusalem shall be trodden down of the Gentiles, until the times of the Gentiles be fulfilled.

27  And then shall they see the Son of man coming in a cloud with power and great glory.
28  And when these things begin to come to pass, then look up, and lift up your heads; for your redemption draweth nigh.

32  Verily I say unto you, This generation shall not pass away, till all be fulfilled.

Another question: Is that generation still living or has everything that was written at the time Jesus spoke been fulfilled?

Moonbeam

11.24.09