The Hill You Chose to Die On

Karen Vaughn wrote that Donald Trump is “crass” but she still supports him. Her words are being shared by Republicans, probably in an attempt to make themselves look better to the rest of the country. If they admit that Trump isn’t quite polished–he’s just a “salty sailor,” as Vaughn said–then maybe they won’t be condemned for supporting him.

Yes, in general, Republicans are willing to confess that Trump isn’t completely perfect. However, in specifics, when they are shown Trump’s crass behavior, most of them defend him. It was either a joke or he didn’t mean it or it’s fake news! Never will they state that Trump commits evil in any particular instance.

By the way, some synonyms for “crass” are:

Stupid, insensitive, mindless, ignorant, witless, oafish, boorish, asinine, coarse, gross, graceless, tasteless, heavy-handed, blundering, doltish, dense, rude, vulgar, churlish

Yes, Trump is crass. So why do so many Republican Christians praise the churlish Trump endlessly and refuse to admit that he does anything wrong? I will give you my opinion.

Christians have to be right. Otherwise, how can they judge the world? If they admit any wrongdoing or wrong thinking–as in supporting an oaf or an evil man–it weakens them. They can’t be weakened. They are the moral standard. They are the light shining on a hill. They are righteous.

Christians and the Republican Party have maintained that pretense of superiority for many years. Then came Donald Trump. He was despicable, but what were they to do? Well, they had to claim he is our savior, of course. Claim he was given to us by God. Claim he tells the truth. Claim he loves the country. Claim his little indiscretions aren’t worthy of discussing (just locker room talk, you know–because God can’t hear through a ceiling, so it’s no big deal). Basically, they had to claim moral superiority as they always have.

Unfortunately, Trump is a loose cannon. He doesn’t know how to hide his evil. So these Christians are having to scramble like little mice to do damage control and make light of his evil, as stated above and also by constantly bringing up those they happen to consider more evil–Hillary and Bill Clinton and Barack Obama, to name three. Republicans even use a picture of Joe Biden at his son’s funeral as he hugged and comforted his grandson to claim Biden was molesting the boy. There is no level to which some Christians won’t stoop.

Now, these Republican Christians could have acknowledged that they were scraping the bottom of the barrel when they chose Trump. They could have said, “He’s horrible, but Hillary is worse,” and left it at that. But no! They have fought tooth and toenail to UPHOLD this atrocious President in his evil ways.

Well, the power of the pulpit in the USA is dead. Christians destroyed it themselves. They chose to die at the side of one of the most despicable human beings of our generation. The doltish Donald Trump was the death blow to the Christian influence. Yes, you Christians who defend Donald Trump, THIS is the hill you chose to die on.

Nobody cares anymore what you think or what you believe. You are no longer trustworthy. You lost your integrity when you watched a ruffian make fun of a disabled man yet you went ahead and elected the lout to the highest office in the land anyway, not only refusing to condemn his actions but declaring him innocent of wrongdoing. And you continue to pretend the brute is good, in the face of all evidence to the contrary.

If you defend the behavior of Donald Trump, you don’t know good from evil. And remember that, according to you, a woe has been pronounced against those who don’t know the difference (Isaiah 5:20). So you think about that as you praise your god while you defend the wickedness of Donald Trump. You think long and hard because when the books are written, you won’t be cast as the hero you think you are. You will be the villain of the story.

If you, as an individual, voted for Trump, it’s not too late to repent. Elections are coming around. And we’ll vote for President again soon. You can make a difference. You can stand against evil in high places.

And if you think Trump is better than the alternatives, then, by all means, you vote for him again. But understand that the rest of us see him for what he is, and your continued high estimation and praise of him demeans you in our eyes.

You may think the alternatives to Trump dwell in a swamp. And it’s possible you’re right. But let me tell you something: if so, Trump was standing there to welcome them in when they got there.

Just be honest about the man, Christians. That’s all I’m saying. Try to hang onto at least a little bit of respectability.

And to those 7,000 Republican Christians who truly believe in goodness and truth and haven’t bowed the knee to Trump: I salute you. And I’m sorry for the shame your fellow Christians have brought upon you.

October 21, 2018

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The Victimization of Victims

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If you are ripped open, some people will condemn you for bleeding. If you are beaten and battered, some will despise your scars. If you speak of your injuries in an attempt to heal, empower yourself, or inspire others, you will most likely be attacked all over again and then cast into the garbage dump.

Bottom line: If you admit to being a victim, you will be victimized for your victimization. And that is why those who suffer domestic abuse and/or any kind of sexual, emotional, or physical abuse often remain silent or don’t admit to their wounds for many years.

It’s been a rough week. The first eight days of every month are particularly hard because those are the days of the month (five and a half years ago) that I had to sit at the hospital with my unconscious son, hoping and praying he would survive and then accepting the horrifying truth that he would not.

Also, a poem I wrote five years ago (copied below), to explain the depths of my grief over the death of my son, suddenly came to the attention of my friends again this past week. In the poem I speak of sexual, emotional, and physical abuse that occurred during my childhood. I never expected the pain this new discussion would bring me. And while it distresses me greatly to speak of the reaction I received, I believe it’s important to share.

An older sister of mine attacked me for my words. She not only took offense that I accused my father of emotional abuse, and physical abuse toward my siblings and my mother, but she assumed I had also accused him of sexual mistreatment. I had not, but even if I had, her behavior was shocking to me.

My sister began to make excuses for my father: He was sick. We all do stupid things. Without him I would never have had life. He worked and fed us. We can’t blame our parents all our lives for our problems. Some people have it rougher than I do. God gave me four children–“The Lord giveth and the Lord taketh away,” she said. (Some of these were written by her the next day.)

And, adding to my suffering, my sister stated that, while I have lost only one child, another sister has lost three. I suppose that means I’m to be grateful that I have lost only one child, and be ashamed of my grief.

A friend recently posted that her grown daughter has lived a long distance from her for eleven years. Another mother commented that it never gets any easier. We can all understand, and sympathize. But my son has been gone five and a half years and I can’t go visit him. I have no hope that he will ever “move” back home. And, yes, it never gets easier.

But people expect grievers to move on. Otherwise they are accused of being stuck in grief. That’s an unrealistic expectation.

And it’s unrealistic to expect a child or even an adult to hide injustices forever. I was sixty years old when I finally revealed the violence that stained my childhood, leaving me to suffer severe PTSD today.

Although my sister denied it twice, she read my painful words the day I wrote them five years ago. (I have our conversation in Messenger.) She was gentle and kind at that time. She asked whether she knew the perpetrator of the sexual abuse. I refused to answer, telling her I didn’t want to talk about it. She admitted that my younger sister’s confession of sexual molestation was probably true. (My younger sister told her story several years ago, but my sisters refused to believe her and she finally recanted.)

But I guess kindness and understanding of the anguish that springs from sorrow and abuse can last only so long. This time my sister’s reaction, as stated, was totally different. After ranting for a while on my poem’s thread, she deleted most of her cruel comments and went out to garner the support of my other two older sisters.

The next morning, along with deleting me from her Facebook friends list, my sister made a proclamation on her Facebook page, signed by her and my oldest sister, that “all of what [Tina] wrote is not true.” When my nephew told her he had heard the same stories from his mother (he and my niece had stated the same the previous day) and asked her which of my accusations weren’t true, my sister argued with him for a while, refusing to answer his question, and then deleted the entire thread. (I have it all.)

This second discussion was when I realized my sister thought I was accusing our father of sexual abuse. She totally misunderstood my poem and placed my father in places in the poem where I had not referred to him.

But, as I said, even if that’s what I had been saying, my sister’s reaction was hurtful. She declared that she had never read the poem until this past week, yet she didn’t come to me for an explanation. She didn’t offer compassion for my pain. Instead, she chose to gossip about me to our siblings and bring them in to cast upon me their own accusations. Her focus was to defend my father, who has been dead fifty years, rather than support her suffering sister.

My third older sister said that I had slept with her as a child so no sexual abuse happened to me. As if nighttime or a bed is required for sexual abuse to occur. The first sister stated that our mother never left us alone. As if it takes a lot of time for sexual violence to take place. Everybody has to go to the toilet. And when the toilet is outside, as it was at my house, it takes a while. Sexual exploitation can transpire in a fleeting moment.

It is scary to talk about horrible events of our childhood. I am reeling from that discovery. And I’m here to tell you that if you speak out, you will be further assaulted, and possibly shunned. I found that out the hard way.

And this was my family. People who were supposed to care for me no matter what. People who should always have my back. People whom I firmly believed truly loved me and had my best interests at heart.

Worst of all, this further pain was thrown at me on my page containing a heartfelt poem that I had written for my precious son. That is the deepest cut of all. If my own family could do this to me, imagine what strangers are capable of doing to the victims of abuse and loss.

But, please, if you can, speak up! When and how you can, tell your story. Broadcast it far and wide. It may help you heal and it might strengthen the heart of someone else who has suffered as you have.

So show your scars. Bleed on everybody’s carpet. Make a big enough mess that somebody will have to see it and help you deal with it. It’s time.

Tina Rae Collins

November 7, 2017

(Thanks to Joe Perrott for the cartoon!)

The Poem:

Broken

December 30, 2012 at 12:02pm 

I was sexually abused as a child,

At least twice that I can remember for sure.

 

I woke up one night to find my dad trying to smother my mom with a pillow,

And heard him say, “I’d have killed you if them young’uns hadn’t woke up.”

He turned over the kitchen table after Mommy filled it with food one Christmas.

He shot a bullet up through the ceiling one night while we were upstairs sleeping.

I saw him throw my baby sister against the wall.

I watched him pin down another sister, his knees resting on her thighs as he held her hands so she couldn’t fight back.

I was there when he put a cigarette out on my mom’s leg.

I came home from school at lunch to find her clothes torn off her.

And sometimes, as we would be going to bed, he would say,

“If y’all knew what I was going to do tonight, you wouldn’t go to sleep.”

 

My dad died when I was fifteen.

The one time I got up the nerve to go up to the casket, my left arm went completely numb.

I dreamt of him often–a wild-eyed man in a blue suit coming out of his coffin and chasing me to do me harm.

 

My mom was always sick with asthma.

When I was about thirteen I recall hearing her moaning as she tried to draw a breath,

“Young’uns, behave. I’m going to leave you.”

She finally died when I was twenty-eight, leaving me an orphan.

She saw only one of my four children.

I still miss her to this day.

 

The man I loved and married left me five days before Christmas,

With four children between the ages of four and twelve–

In the head of a holler,

In a two-bedroom trailer,

With no flushing toilet,

And no money,

On a dirt road that was dust in the summer and mud in the winter

(And me with no car anyway),

When I was sick with a rare form of pneumonia.

 

I’ve been cast aside and considered worthy of hell for my religious views–

Not for the way I live my life;

Not for anything I can fix;

For my beliefs that I can’t change.

 

But I have fought hard all my life,

And I have survived.

I’ve even thrived.

I was valedictorian of my grade school class,

Valedictorian of my high school class,

Salutatorian of my college class, winning the English award.

I have written books.

I have produced and starred in a cable TV show.

I homeschooled my four children.

I am, today, working toward a PhD in Biblical Studies.

 

I am strong;

I am a survivor.

I pick myself up and I move on and

I never let the bastards grind me down!

 

But this time–

Well, this time God gave me a mountain.

He took my baby boy.

And no fear,

No pain,

No sorrow,

No shame,

No castigation or condemnation or any other crap that anybody in this world can lay on me

Can touch this.

Or even come close.

I am finally broken.

 

Tina Rae Collins

 

 

Every Green Herb

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Dear Christian,

If the state insisted that you cease and desist from sharing the spiritual healing that you believe you need to offer your friends and neighbors, would you stop? I know you at least say you wouldn’t.

You also declare that you would even encourage others to go against the demands of the state. Together you would probably still preach on the TV and radio and write books and articles and speak out on Facebook. You would denounce the state to honor your Lord, right?

What about physical healing? Would you deny the state and stand up for the healing of yourself and others who suffer from pain, depression, PTSD, asthma, glaucoma, epilepsy, diabetes, cancer, and other illnesses?

Do you believe your god heals people of physical disease as well as spiritual disease? I know prayers go up on Facebook for even the tiniest problems–like toenail fungus or even a bloody hangnail. So how does your god respond? Does he say “Abracadabra” and your friend is healed? Does he send manna made of medicine down from heaven? Well, in a sense, I would say “yes” to that last question.

Whatever the creative source is, and you believe it is the god of the Bible, that source has provided healing for the body. The book you follow states that “every green herb” has been given for food. Therefore, if cannabis heals diseases, and we know it does, its purpose is to be consumed–not confiscated and burnt by the state, thus disallowing people their “god-given” right to healing.

Is it worse to keep quiet and obey the law of the land when it comes to restoration of the soul than it is to hide behind your fears and let the state deny people the right to restoration of the body and mind? Is it okay to take away curative measures, of any sort, that your god has provided?

Further, is it prudent to pray for healing and then refuse the cure? What if your neighbor or friend said, “I prayed and asked God to heal my soul, but he just has to do it himself. I’m not willing to work on myself or accept teaching from anyone”? Is it not the same thing when you pray for good health but reject the plant you believe was provided by the one to whom you pray?

Do you remember the story of the man on the roof who begged God to save him from a flood? His neighbor offered him a ride in his pickup truck and he refused it, saying “I know God will save me.” Later a boat came along, but again he said, “My God has promised to save me.” Finally a helicopter appeared, but once again the foolish man refused a ride. So he drowned. And when he questioned God about why God didn’t come through for him, what did God say? That’s right, he said, “I sent you a pickup truck, a boat, and a helicopter; but you refused them all. What else could I have done?”

Do you recognize yourself in that story if you reject what the creator has provided in order to heal your diseases? I suppose if you want to turn your nose up at the creator’s natural cures for yourself, that’s okay. But what about your family members, neighbors, and friends? They are being denied their right to life. They are being hunted down and persecuted for standing for truth. They are being dragged off to prison while you sit silent. Are you not supposed to speak for those who can’t speak for themselves? Will their blood be on your hands if you don’t?

Will you, too, be persecuted if you speak out? Maybe so. But you are called to be a peculiar people. Don’t fear what rulers might do to you! Be “unashamed”! Stand for the creator, not the state! Obey your god rather than man!

But maybe your faith isn’t strong enough to withstand the persecution. Okay then. But you can at least vote for leaders who will stop denying human beings the right to life and health. You can also cease from judging those who choose to use the free gift the earth supplies in abundance.

True wisdom is hidden from this world. At least that’s what you say. So which do you think is better, man-made medicine or natural plants provided by nature–or, as you would say, provided by your god? Are you wise enough and strong enough to make the correct choice?

Sincerely,

Tina Rae Collins

October 7, 2017

List of My Books

Aaron Collins Did That

Down Mare Creek Road

The Gathering in the Last Days

A Fine Thing

The Judaeo-Christian Myth

I Wish I May

The Man in the Red Suit: A Magical Christmas Story

The Melting Pot

My Little Children

A New Day

Snow White Awakens: The Story of Eve’s Redemption

The Soup Bean War

Tales from the Coop

This Little Light

Up Hurricane Road

We Are Emmanuel: How Man Became God

What About Brian

When Angels Cry

Yahweh on Trial

 

 

 

Why Do You Worship Yahweh?

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Why do you worship a god who drowned and aborted babies, told people to buy other humans and that they could beat the other humans as long as they were able to get up and walk in a couple of days, instructed fathers to abandon their children belonging to foreign wives or in order to gain their own freedom, sends lying spirits to deceive people, and plans to destroy or burn some of your family and friends?

(1) Yahweh is cruel, but I’m afraid of him and want to live forever even if others don’t and even if most people have to suffer.

(2) Yahweh is good; and even though the above-mentioned behaviors seem bad, it’s good those babies died young and went straight to heaven, slavery really isn’t that bad, getting a good beating and lingering in pain helps slaves to learn to obey, it’s okay to abandon your children to gain freedom for yourself or if their mother doesn’t believe in Yahweh, and some people deserve to hear lies and be burnt or otherwise destroyed.

There is no other choice. Either you see these behaviors as evil but you worship Yahweh anyway because you think he’s God and will punish or reward you, or you see his actions as good and you worship him because he has shown himself to be worthy of your worship. Which is it?

Tina Rae Collins

 

6 Moral Behaviors You Thought Were Immoral

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6 Moral Behaviors You Thought Were Immoral

We all know that atheists can’t determine right from wrong because they lack any basis on which to make such judgments. We Bible believers, on the other hand, easily ascertain morality.  How, you ask? It’s all clearly expounded in our book, which is the holy and inspired word of God and therefore cannot be erroneous.

You don’t believe me? Well, let’s check out the Bible and you will see how amazingly moral it is. Trust me though, you will be surprised by some of these!

  1. Is it moral to steal from others?

Exodus 3:22  But every woman shall ask of her neighbor, and of her who visits her house, jewels of silver, jewels of gold, and clothing; and you shall put them on your sons, and on your daughters. You shall despoil the Egyptians.

Answer: Yes, it is perfectly fine to steal from our neighbors.

  1. Is it moral to murder?

Exodus 32:27  He said to them, “Thus says Yahweh, the God of Israel, ‘Every man put his sword on his thigh, and go back and forth from gate to gate throughout the camp, and every man kill his brother, and every man his companion, and every man his neighbor.”

Deuteronomy 21:18  If a man have a stubborn and rebellious son, who will not obey the voice of his father, or the voice of his mother, and, though they chasten him, will not listen to them; 19  then shall his father and his mother lay hold on him, and bring him out to the elders of his city, and to the gate of his place; 20  and they shall tell the elders of his city, This our son is stubborn and rebellious, he will not obey our voice; he is a glutton, and a drunkard. 21  All the men of his city shall stone him to death with stones: so shall you put away the evil from the midst of you; and all Israel shall hear, and fear.

Psalm 137:9 (WEB) Happy shall he be, Who takes and dashes your little ones against the rock.

Answer: Yes, if our brother or sister, or anyone else, doesn’t worship our god, it is perfectly fine to murder him or her. Or, if our own sons and daughters won’t do what we say–or eat and drink too much–we should kill them. And what joy to murder little infants, secure in the knowledge that it is pleasing to the god of the Bible!

  1. Is it moral to lie?

2 Chronicles 18:21  He said, ‘I will go forth, and will be a lying spirit in the mouth of all his prophets.’ He said, ‘You shall entice him, and shall prevail also: go forth, and do so.’ 22  Now therefore, behold, Yahweh has put a lying spirit in the mouth of these your prophets; and Yahweh has spoken evil concerning you.

Ezekiel 14:9  If the prophet be deceived and speak a word, I, Yahweh, have deceived that prophet, and I will stretch out my hand on him, and will destroy him from the midst of my people Israel.

Answer: Yes, lying is godly.

  1. Is it moral to abandon our spouse and children?

Exodus 21:2  If you buy a Hebrew servant, he shall serve six years and in the seventh he shall go out free without paying anything. 3  If he comes in by himself, he shall go out by himself. If he is married, then his wife shall go out with him. 4  If his master gives him a wife and she bears him sons or daughters, the wife and her children shall be her master’s, and he shall go out by himself. 5  But if the servant shall plainly say, ‘I love my master, my wife, and my children. I will not go out free;’6  then his master shall bring him to God, and shall bring him to the door or to the door-post, and his master shall bore his ear through with an awl, and he shall serve him for ever.

Ezra 10:3  Now therefore let us make a covenant with our God to put away all the wives, and such as are born of them, according to the counsel of my lord, and of those who tremble at the commandment of our God; and let it be done according to the law.

Answer: Yes, abandoning a wife and children is acceptable if it means a man is thereby able to gain his freedom from slavery, and sometimes it is actually required if a man’s wife is foreign.

  1. Is it moral to buy and sell human beings?

Leviticus 25 (WEB) :44  As for your male and your female slaves, whom you may have; of the nations that are around you, from them you may buy male and female slaves. 45  Moreover of the children of the strangers who sojourn among you, of them you may buy, and of their families who are with you, which they have conceived in your land; and they will be your property. 46  You may make them an inheritance for your children after you, to hold for a possession; of them may you take your slaves forever: but over your brothers the children of Israel you shall not rule, one over another, with harshness.

Answer: Yes, human trafficking is a wonderful way to become rich.

  1. Is it moral to punish an innocent person for crimes committed by the guilty?

1 Corinthians 15:3  For I delivered to you first of all that which I also received: that Christ died for our sins according to the Scriptures,

1 Peter 2:24  who his own self bore our sins in his body on the tree, that we, having died to sins, might live to righteousness; by whose stripes you were healed.

Matthew 23:35  that on you may come all the righteous blood shed on the earth, from the blood of righteous Abel to the blood of Zachariah son of Barachiah, whom you killed between the sanctuary and the altar. 36  Most assuredly I tell you, all these things will come upon this generation.

Answer: Yes, it’s actually good that innocents die for guilty people.

There we have it. According to the Bible, we may steal, murder, lie, abandon our families, buy and sell other humans, and rejoice that innocent people die for the crimes of the guilty. I’m glad we have a means to know the truth, as it is important to possess a good strong sense of morality. It’s too bad atheists have nothing to help them choose right from wrong.

Tina Rae Collins